Soul sisters finally reunited ♥

So finally after 6 months we are together again.
We talked for so long yesterday before we went to sleep ane we woke up 2 pm.
I really missed having someone to talk to that way.
It's like we are the same person. I can tell her anything.
And we known each other since forever.
I remember when I was 5 and I followed her home on wednesdays.
We always ate meatballs and potatoes.
But I haven't told her that I'm blogging, I don't know why
I  guess it's cause it feels private, but that doesn't make sense since,
I said we could told each other everything.
I don't really know.

Music

I love music, it always makes me so emotional.

When I listen to sad songs I just wanna sit down and cry and when I listen to good music I just wanna dance and be happy. 

And today I'm leaving!! In 9h I'll be reunited with my bestfriend!! 

*Happy*

To everyone who reads this blog:

Please leave a comment and tell me what you think about the blog.
I would be very happy if you did.

Did it

I started chatting with him again. I missed it. He makes me smile. It's almost like I have a crush on him or something. I hesiteted at first, I wasn't sure it was a good idea to talk to him again, but I'm really glad I did.
I said to myself, what do I have to lose?

Just don't

Don't pretend to care.
Don't pretend to like me.
Don't lie to me.
Don't die.
Don't give me hope, when there isn't any hope left.
Don't leave me.
Don't hurt me.
Don't.

Bored

I'm so tired. And bored. I just got dressed and it's like 3 pm. Anyway, I have to start packing because I'm leaving tomorrow. I'm finally going to meet my bestfriend again. We are going to have so much fun.
I don't know what to write.

.

There was this guy, I started chat with, anonymously. He went to my school and had shared a link on facebook to a chat site where he had started an account so you could chat with him anonymously. I was bored, so I thought why not? We chatted for hours, then he wanted to know who I was.
He promised that he would come speak to me at school if I told him. I didn't want to tell him at first, but at last I told him. Next day in school, nothing. So I went home and saw that he was online on the chat site, so I started chat with him again but I didn't tell him it was me. Like the previous day we chatted for hours. He didn't have a clue that it was me again. He really wanted to know who I was, it was kind of ironic. Next day same thing. The day after that a friday, I chatted with him again. I told him who I was and he promised me that on monday he would come talk to me. On saturday and sunday I chatted with him via facebook. He never came talk to me, he never started chat with me. I was always the one who started chatting with him so I was afraid that he just pretended to like to chat with me, so I stopped chatting with him. If he wanted to chat with me he had to start the conversation. He never did. He never even looked at me in school. We chatted for six days in a row, for hours. Still I meant nothing to him. I hate him for that, even if I still miss to chat with him. I hate him so much for pretending, for making  me hope. I'm hurted even if this happned weeks ago. Sometimes I want to talk to him, but that would be a really stupid thing to do. I mean I don't need him.

One thing I don't get

It feels like people can't do anything by themselves anymore. In my school it's like if you have to go to the toilet someone have to come with because otherwise you can't go to the toilet. It's like they can't anything alone. That bothers me a lot. What bothers me too is people who don't keep their promises.

List of things I have to do

Since I have holidays, I tought that I could make a list of what I have to do.
So this is my list:

• Have fun (the most important point)
• Eat a lot (also very important, I mean it's christmas)
• Be nice (it's christmas, you are forced to be nice, otherwise no presents)
• Study (I know it's christmas I shouldn't be studying, but I really have to)
• Don't sit at the computer all day (hmmm...what am I doing right now), no but I usually sit in front of the computer all day during my holidays
• Take photos, I relly love to take photos of stuff (I have a canon eos 600D)

I think that's it. 

My two best friends

On my last post you maybe got the impression that I don't have any good friends at all, but that's not true. I have a bestfriend. She and I have known each other since we were born, but she moved 2020 km away two years ago. We have kept in touch with each other, I'm actually gonna visit her in five days. But it still sucks, she was always there for me and I for her and we always did crazy stuff.

Then I have a second best friend. We've only known each other for a year, and she's in the class under me so she has many other friends. We don't talk often in school, because she has other friends to be with. But when we meet and do something, it's amazing. We talk, we laugh and we have so much fun.
Unfortunately she's probably gonna move next year. And then I'll be left with my not caring friends again.

What do you do

What do you do when your friends don't relly like you or at least don't want to be with you. When they always chose someone else before you. When you're always alone because they prefer to be with someone else. EASY get new friends. But what if I suck at getting friends? What if my I'm not brave, what if I'm just a coward? I'm too shy, I'm too afraid of makeing a fool of myself. This is a blog about ME.